By Myckelle P. Williams
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”~ Jeremiah 29:11
I feel it’s time for me to make an announcement:
I am PREGNANT. (I have been there plenty of times, so I know the feeling)
Not with a child, but with dream, vision and purpose! Pregnant with possibility and potential for sharing the things that I have experienced in my life with the world! I feel as if something great within me is developing and will soon be anxious to be born! I feel the first kicks, and know that in due time, all will be revealed to me. Keep me in your prayers. God is truly doing a new thing in my life. Meanwhile, the anticipation is energizing…and like a young Mary, I can’t wait to see what God births within me!
At first glance it seems overwhelming. I have been quickly moving my way through school, working towards my Bachelor Degree in Psychology, writing my upcoming book, “The Road Less Traveled”, and launching B.L.O.G. Magazine with a team of editors and writers. Crazily, I felt motivated to do more. I guess I’m making up for lost time, of getting pregnant in 12th grade, and not focusing on my education like I should have. Now that I am close to forty, I have a hunger for learning and growth like never before! What I recently decided was that I am going to push for my Master’s Degree, and get a heavier load for fall…fifteen units instead of twelve so that I can finish more quickly. I am even shooting for Honors Classes so that I can get the best scholarships available. All this of course, with extremely limited income and resources. Suddenly, I understand what God means by “Hope for the Future”. He desires us to overcome, excel and have faith that He will work it all out in the end. And He makes the plans, not us. He already knows what he has in mind for us the moment we enter this earth, and places within us the means to succeed in it.
I loved English classes, but I think my favorite class was Oral communications. My teacher was a little ‘out there’ and had several melt-downs during class, but all-in-all, it was a fun experience. She taught us about making strong speeches, and I excelled at giving Presentations. I realized that speaking and teaching are gifts I want to continue to pursue. I was really good at it, and loved speaking to the youth in Georgia. In my first speech, a self-introduction, I started with a poem called ‘The Road not Taken’ by Robert Frost. This has always been my favorite poem, because it talks about choices, and the impact on your life and destiny:
The Road Not Taken
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference…
I talked about my past and how I was a pilgrim in my family. The first to do many things; the first Christian, the first not to abort, the first to get and stay married, the first not to get high, etc. and how I took the ‘Road less Traveled’ in my own life, in order to break generational strongholds that consumed those before me. I told my story in class about at age eighteen, how I ended up pregnant and with living with a white family, and turned my life over to Christ.
When I finished, and went to sit down, not only did I earn the only 100% in the class, but everyone was like, “Wow…You have a BOOK in you!”
I was surprised. I had been wondering what I could write about, that could possibly make a difference, and realized that is the story. When I went to live with Karen and David Hansen and got saved.
That’s it!! …That’s the story I need to tell. How I was chosen by God and plucked out of the Miry Clay, and set upon The Rock. How I was abandoned and alone with my second teen pregnancy, and almost aborted my child. How at the last minute my abortion appointment was cancelled and I ended up in a Christian Home, surrounded by something I never really experienced: The Unconditional Love of a Family. How that experience, and those people, made me who I am today. It’s a wonderful tale of love and redemption, of falling, and being saved by grace, and even now when I think about it, I tear up because of the sheer thankfulness I feel at God’s haven chosen ME to go through that experience! It’s not for me to get the Glory, but for some other young girls who are facing life alone, and possibly pregnant and desperate themselves, who can’t imagine any way out.
Another Revelation: I added Education as my minor because, let’s face it: I’m a born teacher. My gift is to take a concept and make it easy to understand for others. Every spiritual or natural skills test that I have taken has told me the same, but all my life I felt teaching wasn’t good enough. (Or too hard, and an unappreciated thankless job).
But, looking back, my favorite teacher in life, Miss White, planted the seed of Christ in me in 5th grade, and what she did for me is above any earthly salary. Plus, with a Psychology degree, along with Education, I can counsel youth, and it will look better on my resume for speaking.
I may end up being Dr. Myckelle Watch out now! (God just laughs at me when I plan my own life, I’m sure.)
My dear friend and B.L.O.G. Partner Katrina Smith put out a wonderful book called ‘The Butterfly Movement™, and I got my autographed copy! Reading it, I was blown away by the fact that she has done something I’ve wanted to do for years. When I told her I want to write my story, she offered to help me and hold me accountable. I am in the process of writing and in time, we shall see how that goes. I’m really excited to see what comes out of me.
When you are pregnant, you begin to envision the baby: What will it look like? Will it have my eyes, will it have a head full of hair, or completely bald? A boy or a girl? You begin to take care of the baby, and love it even before it is born, you make plans to provide the best possible future for it, and even decide to name it in advance before you even lay eyes on it.
Well, I am naming this baby of mine: ‘Success Prosperity Empowerment Discipleship Williams’. And while waiting for her birth, I am going to prepare like anyone else in expectation, nourish her with ‘Living Water” through me before her birth, keep myself healthy, and gather my closest friends and loved ones to Celebrate…the ones who will speak LIFE over her, not death before her birth. I’m really excited to see what comes out of me…and every day praising God that he chose My life as the garden in which to plant her into!
As you read this issue, think of our theme: Pregnant! With Purpose, Expectation and Destiny. Let this issue stir something up deep within you that empowers you to become pregnant too! (They say that pregnancy is contagious anyway, right?) The bible says to speak things into existence, and so Name your baby as well…surround yourself with others who will encourage your vision…and don’t be so impatient that you give birth prematurely! Take your time and nourish that thing within you until it’s completely formed, and ready to survive on its own! For those who are already pregnant, Congratulations on your own expected arrival as well…God has a New Thing for each of us who believe!
“See, I am doing A New Thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.” ~ Isaiah 43:19
Happy Mother’s Day!
B.L.O.G. Magazine Co-Founder
Myckelle P Williams, co-founder of B.L.O.G. Magazine™ and creator of the Heartwood Project™ for Women, lives in Tennesse with her husband of 20 years. She is the mother of 6 children and one grandchild. Once a teen mother who overcame the odds, Myckelle helps empower women to overcome the traumas of their past, and mentors young women over the country. Her upcoming book ‘The Road Less Traveled.” is due to be released in late 2012. For more information about her upcoming Heartwood Project™ Seminars, you can reach Myckelle at firstname.lastname@example.org